As your friend, you want to protect her. But as her friend, she wants to protect you. Doesn't that make sense, dear? Nobody wants someone they love to die or get hurt, especially not for their sake, especially not after already losing so much, even someone as young as you two feel that.

[She addresses Newt for the first time since this started:] He doesn't hate you, but he's confused on why you wouldn't let him protect you.